In his delusional mind, the universe owed him an apology for his height and he compensated for it by singing 'Woe is me,' every chance he got- the 12' extended, remix, house music version.
He suffered from narcissism extraordinaire. Whiteness was his disease, magnified by a Napoleonic complex of huge proportions given his height of 5'1'. Had he been a bit more self-aware, a bit more introspective, he could have accurately described his self-hatred as stemming from his inherent need to feel superior.
He wasn't able to articulate it exactly in that way he claimed to be coming to terms with his submissive nature and his overwhelming desire to serve the Black race.
